Friday, March 30, 2007
原来童话故事也有破灭的时候..
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IM OUT OF JOB!!
sianzz.. was busy looking for jobs these few days.. i resigned v unhappily.. and i voice out my unhappiness.. dun wish to say anithing more.. i haf complain enuff to my frenz.. haha.. all i can say is there are lotz of pple out there in the real working world who r not frank with you.. no matter how nice they r to you.. or how nice u r to them.. so be on ur guard.. although i dun realli like tat.. the dark side of life.. or shud i say the real side of life.. eeekk.. so down.. end of topic.. hehe..
tues was my last day of work.. wed i woke up early to search for jobs on classified.. called a few but most want perm.. den went this agency.. after tat went toa payoh meet sy.. waited for one hr plus for her to reach lor.. and i was damn hungry.. den FINALLY she reached and we chat alot.. as usual.. juicy topics.. hee..
thurs ne.. went for another agency early in the morning.. but all the jobs they gif me are v low paid and im not tat interested.. den after tat she called and tell me got this draftperson job paying at 6 per hour.. omg.. so damn underpaid lor.. and its at tuas somemore.. den she keep saying the pay quite ok.. i shud not be too picky.. dotz lor.. obviously the pay are low.. i noe the industry lor.. feel tat she quite pushy.. but i tink recruit consultant quite bobian.. they haf sales target to meet.. but i dun realli like lah from my point of view.. to tink tat initially i wanted to be like one of them also cos it seem quite fun.. haha..
aniwayz waited vvvvv long in orchard for hz.. his off day.. den we ate and walk around.. brought a nice shirt.. hee.. den walk to dhoby ghaut.. and back to meridian there do quite abit of shopping.. hee.. was too tempted.. hehe.. we both went abit out of control for our pockets.. den went to the foodcourt.. sudden craving for korean food.. saw the long queues.. this make me even more want to eat korean.. cos it look vvvvv yummy.. hee.. den went line up.. he ate mixed rice while i ate my usual bbq chicken.. quite ok lah.. hehe.. quite normal.. hee.. so the long queues are decieving,, but the volume quite alot lah.. nearing the end of the meal i saw an insect on our table.. and its v disturbing.. v turn off sia.. and he killed it in the end.. poor thing.. but u spoil my appetite.. bleah..
after tat went GV watch because i said so.. quite a nice and touching story.. its abt the mother tinking shes always rite and has the rite to choose the partner for her daughter.. and wanted to take control of her life.. i must admit tat it was a v kind intention.. but it may not turn out realli gd for her daughter though.. her daughter has to choose between a rich guy with a gd career and an attractive musician.. she was in a dilemma to choose her own happiness.. makes me wonder tat in our lives.. how many times did we actually noe wat we realli want and wat our real happiness is when we haf to make decisions? Can we for sure say tat we are right all the time making decisions with the logical mind? i feel tat most of the times we tink tat its rite with our logical mind but our heart tot otherwise.. and our mind tend to overpower our heart.. although i feel tat i tend to follow my heart.. as we grow up.. we tend to be more realistic and trust our own mind more.. in the end wheres the real happiness we dun even noe.. i feel tat we shud realli trust our heart.. cos our heart feels for our life.. it feels the happiness in us eventually.. of cos some of u may disagree with me and tink tat im just too naive.. but its just me.. hee
now im currently watching another taiwan show on youtube.. zhuan jiao yu dao ai.. saw the preview at the vcd show at tpy with hz.. damn funny.. after watching it, i find the show quite sweet and funny.. the female lead is a vvvvv rich, pampered, innocent ger who looks like she nvr experience any downs in life.. and she is v cheerful and happy.. i wonder how izzit like to be like her.. untouched unharmed.. as if unhappy or hurt does not realli exist in her dictionary.. her life is like a fairytale.. rich parents.. big house.. rich bf.. she and her bf like prince and princess in tonghua gushi.. so romantic and almost unreachable.. the dream of every ger? hee.. it realli makes me wonder how izzit like to be like her.. forever happy without worries.. dun need to tink much.. everything is simple.. nutting is impossible.. i tink tat oni happens in fairytales.. of cos the ger's life is gg to take on a change in course in the show.. but i realli wonder how it will feel to be like her.. so innocent and fragile.. makes pple feel happi and want to protect her.. ok getting abit cheesy..
today ne.. slacking.. looking for jobs online and newspaper.. wonder this is gg to carry on for how long.. but just enjoy for now.. back to my show.. hee..
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Sunday, March 25, 2007
cactus to mel: haha.. wat blogskin?? stop cui-ing.. i had enuff of sm and rm cui-ing on the mrt back home le.. hee..
today.. im finally at home to relax.. hee.. hardly had anitime for myself to realli sit down in front of the computer or tv and realli rest..
recently.. im troubled abt whether to change job anot.. cos i tink my current pay is too low and i haf a diploma and my expenses are gg up.. hehe.. due to increase in indulgence.. hee.. but not sure.. my frenz all tell me to find other jobs while working den after tat just tell them i quit.. i feel v bad.. cos im working in HR.. i noe their troubles and problems with the staff who comes and go.. they haf to find new replacement which is quite hard.. so i dun wish to be lidat and i feel v bad and guilty.. so in the end.. due to just a coincidence.. i told my senior tat i may wan to find other jobs.. and surprisingly he says its up to me cos im a temp staff.. feel realli bad sia.. he even allow me to tok to some of the senior retail assistants and wanted to show me ard so tat i can decide on whether shud i stay in HR or work in other departments.. although my frenz say tat i shudn't care abt them and shud care abt myself first.. i still feel guilty.. so tats y im super troubled now.. i tink im the oni one who will be so troubled over this kind of boliao things..
there are gd and bad to every job.. HR allows me to learn more things but hard to make frenz and abit of routine work in office.. i haf been eating lunch alone.. so boring and lonely and kelian.. somemore my fren doing same job as me got a higher pay.. den cashiering is abit stress lah and heard tat the supervisors may be fierce but there will be more pple around my age.. although i believe most are younger than me.. hehe.. 20 years old le.. quite old sia.. bu zhi bu jue zhong the first number becomes 2 le.. haha.. im also looking for a draftman job.. pay will be quite attractive but dunno still got vacancy anot since i can oni work for 4 months.. who ask me dun go for the jobs rite after i graduate.. cos now draftman are in quite high demand.. but abit stress and i guess will haf OT.. so equals to no life after work.. hehe.. got another job as a recuitment consultant.. which i tink is quite cool.. however the job scope as a sales job abit turn me off..
after saying so mani pros and cons.. im still back to square one.. im just so indecisive and fickle minded.. eee.. realli dun like myself lidat.. i wish i can be a more firm and decisive person.. aniways.. back to watching videos.. hehe..
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Saturday, March 24, 2007
so long nvr blog le.. cos so busy with work.. go home bathe and all jiu slp le.. tiredzz.. the beginning of boring 9 to 5 office life.. hahhaha..
working as admin in a HR department realli allows me to learn alot alot alot of things.. no matter izzit abt the department, or abt people, or about interviews, or how a jap company differs from others.. its realli a very interesting job.. and one which i haf learnt alot.. its abit boring in the sense tat all the paper work and stuff are routine work.. but the people i get to meet and some interesting stuff happening are like the topping to an icecream.. izzit a gd simile?? haha..
aniways.. im realli thankful to haf such great colleagues.. although i still dun realli noe them well but they treat me realli nice.. the senior even teach me alot of things abt judging pple and problems with people and the tactics to handle pple.. the things he said are realli v provocative to the mind.. it makes me think more and understand more about pple.. and i realli learn more abt how to conduct myself during an interview and first impression is realli important.. the senior says tat as u get more experience dealing with diff people.. u will just haf the instinct to judge pple almost straight away.. i tink tat is realli true.. cos i haf met alot of interviewees and see how my senior handles them differently..
HR pple PR skills damn gd.. realli.. its no joke.. they knew almost every single staff in the company.. they can just tok v casually to anione whos on the other end of the phone as if they are long time frenz.. i believe tats realli important.. must noe the staff well, so tat they share their complaints and their needs, can build a gd rapport and in turn brings more loyalty to the company of cos.. and they wun create problems for u.. some of them already so lao jiang lor.. they noe the staff name and stuff abt them at their fingertails.. real pro.. like a human dictionary.. hehe..
however, people do come and go.. some of them quit the job either in search of greener pastures or cos the job is not suitable or they haf poor rela with colleagues blah blah.. alot of diff kind of reasons.. the working envt is v important.. i hope next time i will love my workplace and the colleagues..
the senior actualli allow me to listen to some of the senior retail assistants abt the gd and bad of the job and some funny happenings.. although there are some complaints abt the job and customers and supervisors.. they also told me tat its realli a v gd experience as i will learn how to handle different kinds of pple and human relationship.. i believe tat they realli find this job a very fulfilling learning experience.. i can realli see tat they dun see the job as a burden.. but as part of their life and they are realli contented.. i wish i can be just like them.. so contented with the job.. hehe.. cos most importantly is to be HAPPI!! hee..
i will fill in more details.. but now its getting late.. although some pple may think tat this company is small and i can see less things.. i believe i learnt alot.. just tat im not the kind who will realli tok it all out.. kz.. gd nitezz.. thanks for those who came to read my boring little bloggie.. hee
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Friday, March 16, 2007
ARGGHHH.. i dunno wat happen to the tagboard.. but i carn tag my own board.. damn diao lor.. been trying for the past half an hour.. aniways i just tag here:
cactus to derek:hahaz.. YEP! wah.. u still remb my blog.. im so happi and touched sia.. hahahha.. nvr see u online.. long time no see le.. hows life?
cactus to sy:haha.. u see.. u r not the first person to tag.. hee.. come see my blog if u want lor.. be my loyal reader.. hehe..
today ne.. nutting much.. slack at home.. watch videos.. den at ard 6pm.. the taka HR personnel called and confirm with me the reporting time and venue.. den say i will most likely be doing cashiering.. sian.. i abit scared of cashiering.. cos if got long queues or wat stress.. and the different cards.. v mah fan.. but bobian lor.. hope after this fair will do other positions bah.. den he even warn me tat the supervisor will teach me cashiering and sometimes may be abit garung(shud be the correct spelling bah.. it means fierce) i scared sia.. sian.. sy also told me her fren work b4.. den the manager quite fierce if nvr hit sales quota.. sian lor.. scared sia.. sure get scolding de.. aniwaysz.. haf to bear with it bah.. still looking forward to work on monday..
aniwayz i shud realli kick the bad habit of slping late again.. and even b4 i work, i got lots of things i want to buy le.. its for health stuff.. cos recently my fren intro me a networking company selling health and beauty products.. and i realli feel tat its gd lor.. esp the iris test.. realli show how bad my health is.. so im starting to be scared and more aware abt wat i eat and all.. realli shud start taking gd care of our health and body.. internal and external.. yep.. i shud realli chiong work now for the gd and worthy spending.. hehe.. CHEERS TO HEALTH AND BEAUTY! hee.. dotz.. -_-"""""
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
forgot to say tat I FINALLI GOT THE JOB! hee.. at taka.. they called me right on tat day tat i went for interview.. just a salesperson post.. nutting great to most of u but im realli happi to get a job le.. after days of disappointment.. hehe.. i hope i can make lots of frens and haf lots of fun working while gaining some experience.. i noe its weird for a diploma holder to get such a job but i dun want my hols to be stress out.. i want a more no brain and relaxing job.. hehe.. btw, dun even noe if i can get in the unis anot.. but i realli wanna get a degree first.. so see how bah..
to say the truth.. actualli im still lost abt the future.. i realli want find a course tat i realli like and haf passion in.. tat goes for the job after tat.. but its realli hard to choose when im at a point where there are just too mani routes to go.. and my mind is so unsettled.. i wish i can be more firm and decisive.. not a fickle minded dumb dumb.. i realli want to be a person who realli noe wat i realli want in life or in anithing else.. but its hard.. most of my frens i ask.. y did u choose tat course?? most will say either cos they dun like other courses and this is the oni course which they sort of can make do with it or just follow wat they study in poly or its just a degree to get other jobs in future maybe or cos this course offer other opportunities in future.. nobody answered me b4 " I LIKE IT".. tats the sentence tat i realli wish to hear from myself.. my lecturer is the oni person whom can realli tell me this firmly.. he is a person who realli noe wat he wants and is firm abt the things he does.. and is so passionate abt the things he does.. i realli aim to be like him.. wat he says and do realli inspired me to realli find out where my passion lies and my future direction.. but for now.. im just a fickle minded ger with no true direction and dreams and ambition and passion.. haizz.. not emo kz.. just tat i wish i can noe wat i realli want.. i noe tat some pple maybe until 40s 50s also dunno wat they realli want.. but i dun wish to be lidat.. i wish to face life and the future with a direction and passion.. so tat everyday is a realli well spent day.. so WAT U REALLI WANT IN LIFE? WATS UR TRUE PASSION?? maybe we shud start asking ourselves now and gif it more thoughts..
on the other hand.. life is not oni abt work and passion.. theres still family and frenz to cherish and spend time with.. tats wat im trying to do now.. as i realli feel tat i neglected them during my poly due to poor time management and real busy stressful skool life.. tats y my msn nick once was 人到了最后， 花了一生追求的名利地位会不会只是一场空？而忽略的感情和身边重要的人是代价， 值得吗? so i realli tink i lost alot bah.. so must realli cherish now..
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ARGGHHH.. i dunno wat happen to the tagboard.. but i carn tag my own board.. damn diao lor.. been trying for the past half an hour.. aniways i just tag here:
cactus to derek:
hahaz.. YEP! wah.. u still remb my blog.. im so happi and touched sia.. hahahha.. nvr see u online.. long time no see le.. hows life?
cactus to sy:
haha.. u see.. u r not the first person to tag.. hee.. come see my blog if u want lor.. be my loyal reader.. hehe..
back to blogging.. hmm.. today woke up late.. cos 2 days so little slp sia.. slp late and woke up so early for the interviews.. den after tat surf net abit b4 gg off to far east on my own to find the black covered shoe for my work.. so hard to find nice and flat ones(ok lah abit of heels).. hee.. den walk rd and rd b4 settling on one ok de.. not realli realli like it and want to buy but just for work bah.. hehe.. if want to search for sth tat i realli realli fancy i tink i haf to shop for days.. hee..
after tat rush to meet hz and his frens to celebrate his fren's bday.. had crystal jade at vivocity.. wah.. went in.. see the price abit shock sia.. its diff from the normal crystal jade outlets tat u see in most places.. its the damn ex and classy kind.. we shud haf noe since the decor totally diff sia.. den hq chose the dishes with the help of the supervisor's reco.. around 7 dishes for 9 pple.. let me recall them.. got egg with vege, plain vege, half a chicken, half a duck, pork, beef and beancurd.. the dishes are vvvvvvvvv nice sia.. worth the price.. eat until quite full.. vvvvvv delicious.. yummy.. din expect it to be tat nice cos i ate the normal crystal jade and its quite ok lor.. this one realli diff.. the whole meal was 228 dollars.. so ex.. i tink i wun haf chance to eat le bah.. hehe.. cos half of the meal is yq the bday boy treat de.. but its realli nice lor.. i wuld love to haf it if somebody treat me.. hee
went up to the outdoor sky garden.. as usual guys sure will throw bday boy into the pool de.. tat was their motive for gg vivocity.. hee.. but in the end throw everyone into the water except the gers.. hehe.. i v busy sia.. haf to rush around get the best shots of them being throw into water.. hehe.. fun cos i need not get wet.. hee.. shud haf take video but din tink of tat.. dumb dumb..
tat marks the end of the day.. and im tired.. oh no.. im gg back to my habit of slping late and waking late again.. CANNOTTTTTTTT.. cos im working on monday le.. hehe.. realli hope the job will be fun bah.. and the supervisor wun scold me.. hee..
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
I'm BACK!
hahahhaha.. this is gonna be a real long entry..
aniways.. was busy with skool and rela and watever.. hahahha.. now finalli skool is out.. im free.. hee.. so finding jobs now.. yesterdae wake up so early at 745am go to this company who says tat they do events and all.. but they make us wait for like 1 hour plus outside while they hafing some orientation inside the room.. in the end its fundraising.. dotz.. so turn off.. and the person who tok to me say things so vaguely.. abit like trying to bluff thru lidat.. realli v waste time sia.. i was damn pissed off lor.. and the way they earn money is haiz.. dunno wat to say.. as sy said.. its like v hei an lidat..
after tat called a few companies abt events also.. cos im realli interested in taking part in organising events or just helpers for set up or promoters or watever in roadshows and promotions fair.. cos i want to haf a fun job and gain more experience in different fields and the process of organising events.. but then they keep pressing us to go for their interviews and not answering my questions abt the jobscope and salary.. like trying to avoid the question and push us for the interview.. until i ask them izzit fundraising for charity.. den they say yes.. den of cos i say its ok and put down.. damn sian already..
after which went to this event company for interview.. he say until like so gd lidat.. say the position is event assistant.. den i say izzit help to organise and set up events.. he says yes.. which is exactly WAT I WANT.. so i agreed to go for the observation day/site visit the next day.. buttttttttttttttt.. to be continued later..
after tat went for another interview for promoters.. the salary and commission seem attractive just tat the hours of working are short.. din gif an answer for tat cos was hoping for the previous event one to be successful..
at nite went to eat indinine with hz, zm, geor, sy and amber.. den went for the talk about their company.. the tok is quite interesting.. but im not an ambitious person.. i just want to learn abt things.. but no harm gg for the toks
today.. i wake up so early at 7am.. lack of slp nowadays.. and went for tat event company observation day.. they also haf some cheering inside the room.. so weird.. all these companies same pattern sia.. abit scared it will be disappointing.. and indeed it is fundraising AGAIN.. haiz.. its to sell tickets one.. alamak.. actualli need to follow them whole day but i say i not interested and just went off le.. i dun understand y they haf to do this u noe.. as in nvr tell me exactly wat i will be doing in my first interview.. haf to wait until later den tell us.. and i feel like im being cheated lor.. say wat event assistant.. maybe its their way of phrasing.. but they say help out in organising and set up.. den in the end its not.. and den the guy tell me there will be other events but this will last till may.. and other events shud be oni a few days.. dotz.. wah lau.. must be frank mahz.. i dun trust wat events liao lor.. tink those help out de shud be mostly guys job.. and organising is for professionals.. during the first interview shud haf guess theres sth wrong lor.. since he tell me and sy slightly diff things.. heard rumours abt all this charity thing.. but nvr met anithing lidat until now all keep coming.. damn sian..
so kelian de me alone wait for retail time to call for positions such as receptionists at makeover studio.. so went far east eat.. after tat called them but they hiring permanent.. so sian.. i want to experience sia.. as in i believe there will be alot of things to see and learn in such studio.. so it will be quite a fun job.. but sadz.. went to buy today's newspaper and start flipping again.. to no avail.. walk around far east dunno how mani rounds saw alot of retail shops looking for sales assistant.. but i feel tat it will be a v boring job lor.. maybe oni one person man the shop.. even boring..
so went to alot of departmental stores such as tangs, isetan and FINALLI taka say they shud be hiring.. but must wait for call also.. hope they hire me and i will chiong work liao.. hehe.. although the working abit xiong lah.. as in little rest days bah.. but since im free y not.. hehe.. but dun dare to be too happi.. cos haf been experiencing too mani times of greater hopes greater disappointments.. so di diao abit.. hee.. but i hope.. i Hope.. i HOPE.. hee..
finally reach home to type this entry after so much walking.. tiredzz..
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